Keep struggling!

This post has taken a while to get out because I could not seem to get the words right. I hope you can makes sense of the ramblings from my heart!

Living in Los Angeles has been absolutely amazing. I have fallen hard for this city in so many ways.

However, the past couple of weeks have been a struggle. There have been a lot of missteps and a lot of wrong doings on my part. I have failed in many ways.

One particular failure placed me in a difficult rut. A small voice in my head whispered that I was currently a broken mess and that if I prayed to God now He wouldn't even listen. I had no business talking to Him when I was in this state. He would only be disgusted.

Oh how very wrong. 

If you let your misgivings and flaws control whether or not you go to God then the enemy is winning.

Go to God always. 

God can use the very little bit of faith and self control that we can give Him. We will NEVER be perfect. We will always be struggling with something. So if we wait until we are perfect to take ourselves to Him we fail. Satan wins. 

Come as you are. 

This doesn't mean we should continue to sin with the thought 'Oh He'll just forgive me' going through our heads. It means that we need to quit taking our sin to the corner thinking we can force it out of our lives in private. In my most recent Beth Moore study (The Law of Love), Beth hit me with more of her profound wisdom:

"No one was ever shamed out of their pit."

The shame and guilt we pile onto ourselves, hoping that it will be what drives us into a life worth living, is only weighing us down. Pressing us tighter to the floor of the hole we have dug ourselves.

The only way out is to let God love us out.

No matter how little we have to give, God is never ashamed of our offerings. He is so pleased with them. He is so proud of them. 

He can feed the masses with the two fish you bring. If you bring Him nothing He can do nothing with you.

Don't wait until you are in a perfect state of being. It will never happen. Just go to God right now. 

The freedom we have in God does not make us perfect. It opens our eyes to truth and then makes us free to start wrestling our own selfish desires to walk in that truth. 

Keep struggling.

P.S. A good accompaniment to this blog post is Chapter 8 in 'The Screwtape Letters' by C.S. Lewis.