Megan and I set out on the night of Monday March 4th.
After some debate over my car mishap I left my house to pick her up around 10:00 p.m. and after we fixed our snacks for the drive, we left for Kansas City.
We drove through the night, stopping to sleep at a rest stop for a few hours. I was so exhausted from the weekend that even thoughts of becoming a Human Centipede couldn't keep me awake.
We arrived in Kansas City close to 10:30 a.m. stopped for some of their famous BBQ, then headed to IHOP (International House of Prayer).
IHOP is a hub of 24 hour prayer. They have a room where there is constant worship and constant praying. All day every day. The perfect place for a christian girl who is facing a very daunting journey to pause and get her bearings.
This was the first song in the prayer room:
I had a lot of chains to break. I still kind of do. Jesus and I are definitely working through some stuff.
Our host home for the night was Megan's childhood best friend, Sommer. The second we walked in the door Sommer's daughter Amelia gave me a very big hug and said, "I just love you so much." Children are stinking awesome.
Thank you again for opening your home to us Sommer and family! I am so grateful.
Thank you again for opening your home to us Sommer and family! I am so grateful.
We played Candy Land with the kids so Sommer could focus on dinner.
That night I realized that I have never been so emotionally drained in my life. I had just left my whole family behind for a second time. My car had broken down. I was spending a lot of my savings on gas money to get to my LA home. I had no idea where my life was headed. It can be so scary.
As I crawled into bed that night I just gave myself over to exhaustion, hoping that God would hold me through my sleep. Hoping that He would deliver me from all of my fears.
"...but we[b] also glory in our sufferings,because we know that suffering produces perseverance;4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hopedoes not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."
As I crawled into bed that night I just gave myself over to exhaustion, hoping that God would hold me through my sleep. Hoping that He would deliver me from all of my fears.
"...but we[b] also glory in our sufferings,because we know that suffering produces perseverance;4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hopedoes not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."
Romans 3-5
So there I lay with all of my hopes. Desperately placing them in the hands of my savior because quite frankly I had not the strength to go on without Him.
I will tell you all about the next day in part 2!
Thanks for reading,
EMG
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